Random night

It breaks my hearts whenever i listen to "The Way I Loved You" by TSwift 

but i can't stop listening it.

 And it saddens me most 

When i don't even know myself why.

The good memory nadia.

Lahhh lupa lak birthday aku tak lama lagi. Patutla mak aku suruh aku balik dengan adik aku sekali 2hb ni. "-.-

Senior oh senior

Once knew this one senior who used to have nice-smelled pencils and pens. How? Kept EDT in the pencil case, one day, someone forgot and threw it, it broke, and VOILA. 

I used to thought it came with the package. You know, with him being so good looking, so pandai, and so nice. Lol. 

Royan Fossil.

Bagi aku, hadiah paling bagus adalah hadiah yang praktikal. Yang orang boleh guna dan pakai. Kalau habis pun takpa. Sebab kau dapat pakai dan guna benda tu.

I love and would try my best to give health and cosmetic things as these things tend to give good messages to the receiver. of course it's bcs i want my beloved receivers to live longer. And prettier. And happy. :)

Atau apa2 barang dan benda yang selama ni mmg dalam to-have-list dan to-do-list orang tu. Cool kot. Macam Santa Claus hihi.

Macam mak aku, this year we got her Kinohimitsu collagen drinks for her birthday. Tapi tak praktikal sgt pasal benda tu setahun sekali je kan. Lepastu mak aku dah malas nak beli sendiri pasal mahal sgt lol. Nanti aku nak belanja dia pergi spa ke facial ke massage ke we'll see. Bapak aku pun. Takkan mak aku nak gi sorang je. Hahaha.

For my adik, i got handbag for her last year birthday. Tahun ni ingat nak beli instax tapi tak jadi pasal mahal sgt and bapak aku dah beli ipongsik kat dia hahah (apalah)

Untuk adik2 yang lain, ah kecik lagi. Lol jk. High maintenance sgt -.- kalau boleh seketul tu aku nak kasi Wii atau ps4. Seketul lagi aku nak kasi hadiah headphone. Tapi apakan daya. Herher.

Untuk diri sendiri plak, hadiah paling praktikal dan paling berguna bagi aku yang aku rasa setakat ni adalah buku, sweaderr dan jam tangan. 

Aku suka buku yg nak2 aku boleh baca banyak kali tanpa bosan. Wau macam mana tu. Entahlah. Aku suka, kalau orang tu personally recommended something. Which is, dia pernah baca dan dia suka dan sekarang dia nak bagi kau supaya kau rasa ke'best'an buku tu.

Walawehh. Nak nak kalau sweaderr tu kaler yang kau belum ada. Nak nak kalau sweader tu takda zip. Kain selesa. *heavy breathing* (yeay dah dapat!)

Jam tangan plak serius lah berguna kan. Jam kot. Nak nak kalau fossil. Nak2 mmg yang kau aim. Fuuuuh. *heavy breathing lagi* tapi Fossil bapak dia mahal seyhhhh. Beg dia kebanyakan cuns cuns skang ni. Tapi mahal macam nak rompak kedai dia hahaah. Alah cakap je lah kau teringin Fossil kan. Herher. Done. So dah berangan sikit haritu kalau buat hantaran nak handbag Fossil jam tangan dia purse dia HAHAHA. Which is... Bila entah yang aku rasa betul2 nak kahwin ya pun tak tahu. Big commitment woh. Bercouple pun aku dah rasa renyah. Ni aparah lagi kahwin. Nak kena bangun awal, kemas rumah tangga semua. Tu belum ada anak lagi. Sok dah ada anak. Ha lain pulak cerita dah. Ha dont make me start. Kang bebel ni.

Pokoknya, something that has your personal touch. Like, "oh, aku tengok benda ni, aku nampak/teringat kau. I hope you like it" gitu. 

Tapi setakat ni aku suka self reward diri sendiri yang tak berapa layak nak dapat reward ni dengan benda yang aku suka kat instashop (cakap jelah kau mudah terpengaruh, dan mudah nak membeli kat instashop tu hekeleh) 

And setakat ni, maqupxoxo, fossil murah, zueboutique dgn nanirostam berjaya buat aku berulangkali cari instashop depa. Merenung barang2 yang ada sambil melelehkan air liur teringin situ sini (self torture sangat wajib). So sekarang ni, aku tengah beli sikit2 mana2 yang aku berkenan dan tercapai dek poketku. So makan dah kena kurang lepasni, which is, bagus sbb selalu sangat meroyan, sedih, pilu mengenangkan 'beg' kat perut aku ni. (Boleh adik aku panggil lemak kat perut aku tu beg?? Demit.) tapi sebab malas nak bersenam, terpaksa puaskan hati saja dengan apa yang dah ada lol.

Ok nak sambung hafal untuk paper Asso 2 esok. Babai

Spender

It's never good when your own mother thought bad of everything that you gonna say and have said. 

Penat explain, salah ayat kang terasa. Yelah makpak tak rasa, anak2 yang rasa and nampak beza cara sayang tu kan. 

Adalah yang lebih, yang kurang. Tapi jangan pernah nafikan. Rasulullah pun ada kesayangan Baginda. Kita ni manusia biasa. Mesti ada je yang kita sayang lebih. Mesti. 

Spender ada lima, kaler sama, kain sama, of same brand. Tapi mesti ada satu spender tu yang korang akan suka jugak pakai. Hahahh.

Fossil oh Fossil

Wuaaaaaaaa kenapa barang2 Fossil ni cool cool wuarghasdfghjklmnbvcxz.

Ha follow lagi ig fossilmurah . Konon. Kan kau dah royan sorang sorang. Murah dia tu macam tak ada beza *sambung nangis lagi*

Ability

I'm at the age where i have the ability to determine whether it's love or purely friendship. But I don't have the privilege to make other people to believe what i really felt. Well, you know what? Screw them. It's your life. What matters are what you really think. And because what you really think determines what you do. 

Sometimes, you feel it is easier to keep quiet than to explain. Sometimes you think it is useless to try to explain something to people who never will take your words, yet chose to see you from their not-so-rose-tinted-glasses. Sometimes you just feel, plain lazy to explain. Sometimes you just don't feel to do so. Sometimes, too, you feel that, mere words cannot describe accurately what you have felt. After all, feelings are to be felt, not told, no?

If you have to convince them who you really felt, you will ended up convincig yourself. Stop explaining yourself and try to believe more in yourself. 

After all, it's your life! At the end of the day, the one whose gonna bear the consequences is YOU. Not the people who have succeeded in influencing you. 

Pessimists.

Sometimes i am just so annoyed with these positive thinking people. The world is not that positive. There are theories. Correct theories, correct way of doing something, better way of doing something. Just, human are not that good. 

Logically, we can think the best way solution. Well if that involves only us, wa may do so. Problems appear when the world just don't revolve only around us. 

Macam buat karangan, aku selalu terfikir. Macam macam benda kena tulis. Cara nak memelihara hutan, cara nak mengurangkan rasuah, bagaimana untuk meningkatkan ekonomi negara and all sorts of bs. Why i mentioned it as bs? Bcs it's just theories. Good theories. Just, people know it is there. People know it exists, just, people dont give a s* to even bother to do it. 

Without action, they are merely theories. No matter how good they are.

There are people who care to try and do and there are people who aren't. We are not perfect. The people i am surrounded with, at least. 

Spaghetti-sukahati-nak-masak-study-untuk-test-esok-takmau-bolognese.

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Berapa kali tambah cili giling, berapa kali tambah air pun aku tak tahu.

Lama dah tak masak bolognese. Harini try tambah telur. Nak tengok best ka dak.(pengaruh qeela) Ah harini pakai cili giling saja, cili padi lupa nak letak.

Spaghetti aku patah dua. Senang nak makan. (Dasar melayu tak reti pusing pakai garpu)

AFTERTASTE

Agak kering kuahnya. Ayam masak ok. Lain kali letak carrot lebih sikit. Tomato lain kali pakai satu bijik terus. Garlic ok. Bawang besar ok je (cukup half untuk sorang makan) 

Ah! Aku rasa kering sikit pasal aku letak telur tadi! Haa. Telur tak terasa pun ada. (Unless kau alergik telur lol)

Keputusan nak pakai olive oil sangat bernas. Pasal tak berminyak langsung. (I hate greasiness. Well who doesn't kan)

Pedas: LANGSUNG tak -.- remind me lepasni kena letak lebih dari dua sudu bukit. 

KESIMPULAN

Aku rasa kalau buat kuah nachos pun jadik gak nih :D

lepas ni boleh masak lagi!

Sri Nirwana cedok cedok

Haritu makan kat Sri Nirwana kat Bangsar. Alah sebelah Tous Le Jours tew. Member aku, Nana Madeonus ajak. Boleh tahan lah. 

Dia cedok nasik depan kau. Letak lauk, sayur semua depan kau. I mean, dia datang kat meja kau.

Ha gitu.

Ada peria goreng. Which sangat sedap kalau makan ngap kari dia sebab krup krap krup krap. Tapi kalau makan gitu saja. Pahit hoiiii. Ye lah peria kan. Takkan nak rasa macam koton kendi plak kan. 

Harga untuk sepinggan nasi + sayur + ayam, (ayam tu kitorang share 3 orang. Tak banyak mana pun) dapatla rm12.

Agak mahai untuk aku yang selalu melantak kat Hakim ni hehehe. Ha tu je kot.

Babai.

Malasnya!

Well i guess it WAS love.

When you see his picture with another girl and you sincerely hoping and wishing he would find happiness with this girl.

Yet your heart flinched when you see the girl held him tight, him holding her tight, with really, happy smiles drawn on both their faces.

And i thought it was just confused friendship.

"Ingat saya tak?"

Waktu dok tunggu ktm ni lah (gua otw balik pdg jawa dari salak tinggi) gua teringat satu peristiwa.

Ada orang pernah datang kat gua. Comel. Lepastu cakap hai. Lepastu dia tanya.

 "Ingat lagi tak?"

Gua cuba ingat. Sambil tu, gua pandang kiri kanan. Takut lah tiba tiba kena pukau ke apa ke, gua ni dah lah lurus sikit. Sikit je lah.

"Hmm... Tak.."

Budak lelaki tu dah malu. Mana tahu? Sebab muka dia dah merah masa gua jawab gitu. Lol.

Gua fikir lagi deras.

"Serius tak ingat." 

Masa tu gua dah macam, apahal lak comel macamni aku tak ingat lak en... Nak tanya siapa nama macam segan. Haishh.

Budak lelaki tu masih di situ. Mungkin menanti sampai aku ingat ke dia.

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Tapi sekarang bila aku fikir balik, tu mungkin trik nak mengorat. Mungkin trik dia nak pukau. Mungkin dia salah orang. Atau mungkin dia jodoh aku (wow that escalated quickly). Atau mungkin, aku je yang tak pandang muka dia betul betul. 

Segan doh. What did you expect? Dah la tak kenal, tiba tiba approach kita, comel lak uh, sorry bro. Gua ni udah le mudah cuak sikit.

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"Awak salah orang kot.Serius saya tak ingat." Yakin aku jawab ke dia.

Dia geleng kepala. Lepastu dia terus berlalu.

Lepastu ktm pun datang. Aku masuk koc wanita lah kan. Dah tak nampak dia dah.

Hooodieeeee ohh hooodieee

Aku rasa benda paling berguna tapi paling susah aku nak dapat. Natang ni.

I have longed and still wish to have all colours of it.

So cool lah weh!

Tapi susahnya lahai nak cari material + colour yang aku nak.

Ada kaler cantik, material tak best plak. 

Ada material best, kaler.. Hmm...

Kaler cantik, material best, pattern lak tak berkenan.

Penatlah oi penat.