A little prayer

What did I do to deserve this kind of present,  ya Allah? Alhamdulillah thank you for my mother,  my siblings, my father,  and my other family members.

Udah dititipin uang buat train, lagi dititipin uang untuk gue lunch lagi, buat grab lagi,
Ya Allah murahkan rezeki ibuku dan panjangkan lah hayatnya dalam kesehatan jua kebajikan.

Little bro

My not so little brother had a grave accident last two years. Caused him his right eye. Now left with 30% sight. Apparently the other motorcycle was stupid enough not to look before putting on speed and went crashing on my Bro. Stupid not licensed rider.

And today this morning. His eye went red. So freaking red. In the same day he had to attend an appointment with the lawyer with regards for his personal injury claim. The previous doctor said nothing wrong with his eye. Not infection. Just maybe that since he could never close his properly now,  might be some bug doing it. So now the neurologist at the Island Hospital is checking him up.

Semoga semuanya baik baik je

UPDATE 26/1: Bless all these soul. My Boss gave me 2 days leave, (even gave me emergency fund) Doctors done the best, My mother who is always there, my cousin,  my uncle and aunt, my wicked siblings, thank you. From the deepest of my heart.

Guess

I guess I'm too in love to let it go

Beats me.

To be loved. To be protected. I guess it's just too much to ask from you. Or I've been anticipating from a wrong person. So..  Where's the right one is?

2019 nad!

you know.. i was cleaning up the trash before starting with my work. Nobody was in the office yet. It was then when I saw an empty packet of instant noodle inside the trashcan. I felt bad. Just a few days ago my officemate offered samyang to me.

It's just the second week of January and we are stuck financially... But I guess she got it worse than me. At least I got to have my breakfast whenever B asked me to buy his. :(

Luckily! I already got my breakfasttttt. SOOO I just bought one (usually B said who's buying she's entitled to get one for her own) and gave it to her. I was quite worried she wouldnt like the set I chose so I just prayed hard and boy, how God listens! It was accidentally her favourite set of double sausage mcmuffin with egg!

No. I would never blame my B. Every job has its perks and cons. Some places pays high but the Boss is hideousss. While some places goes with good pay, good collegue, far from home, good Boss. Some places nice Boss but pays a lot less buttt comes with lots of benefits! Lets you build your better self...

I'm gaining experience here. How nice it is to be in the place which lets you bloom beautifully. I am happy to be here. HELL YES I do worry of the future. But the power is in me. The now. The present. At least I get the power to decide however I want my present to be, to leave or to stay. Fight or flight. To be, or not to be. No it's not called being ignorant. More of a way to care about your present, in order to decide for your future. You cannot change your past. Butttt at least the present lets you have the say. Kan ?

Lagi satu. Nowadays, if I miss someone, I will straightly tell them how I feel. I'm tired of regrets. Now, I would take every opportunity that I have, try to live in the heat of the moment, because people change. The person you think you might know very well right now won't even respond to you the same way anymore in 5 years when you meet them again. By treating them the best, these good people deserve the least of this. I will give them my very best.

Ha. Kalau salah, that's not my mistake lah. Because ? If you know it, it's called understanding. If not, then you just misunderstood me lah. hehehe.

Y u so scareddddd

Sometimes,  I caught myself doing bad things on purpose just because I was scared that they would stuck on the idea of me being all nice so that I won't be responsible for their expectation.

Praise to God

Alhamdulillah. I thank you God. For letting me be myself. For finally letting me have friends who always thinks the best of me. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah.

Thank you God