Sibs

i'm worried. worried of how my siblings would turn out to be.
Lepas tengok ep1 Shameless. How i wish i could be as responsible as Emmy Rossum.
how i could see my sisters and brothers everyday.

ini while we're far away, i couldn't keep track on
whatever's happening to their lives
whatever's happening on their days

i really wish god will always keep them away from straying out of the straight path.
there's too much evil things nowadays
i really wish that whenever they face things that are not nice,
there will always be person, ANY person would do,
to tell them, that this is just the beginning.
learn from your mistakes
but never make mistakes so bad you can't go back.
how do you know?
by living.
you know, stopping people from living will never really stop them from dying though..

and mom.
i pray that mom is given
more-than-enough-strength
more-than-enough-patience
more-than-enough-wisdom
more-than-enough-taqwa
to face dad

i don't know what will happen in the future
since whatever's happening, happened.
i can only hope our family will forever stick together
no matter what.

aaamin.