of kek gula hangus and covEid 2020

First try hangus. Mom was really confident i mistakenly used tepung beras instead of tepung gandum since theyre sitting side by side but noooo.. i really checkkkedddd aaaaa. i mightve overbaked it. tu je. but bunbun was so nice she said the taste was still alright and couldnt stop eating it even though i asked her to stop eating kek tayar kereta. ishhh

Esoknya i made another. Second try yayy jadiii. Kita kasi rehat 1 jam 30 minit sahaja (30 minit ttu pun sebab i turned on oven but didnt exactly switched it on since i only ended up turning on on the oven light lol apa bendaa deeee) Baked at 160 degree for 40 minutes. Hakim asked me not to proceed another 5 minutes since it already looked so 'baked' (lol).

Walaupun masa nak caramelised gula tu habissss gula meruap naik sampai dapur flooded a bit (thousand thanks to bunbun aaaa she helped me a lot. patiently. aaaaaaa) 

I have the best family in the world. :') mom just called me up for subuh. This morning she said she went to my room to wake me up. I could hear her voice trembles. Aaaaaaa whyyyyy. Mata aku masuk habuk oiiii. 

Homesick :'(

it has never been described better

ifthor

Berbuka puasa with Za's sisters

za really likes their cakes. But they haven't been accepting walk-in customers yet

no egg cupcake

Easy cupcake

Step 1

Step 2

Combine minyak masak and susu pekat into the batter

Step 3

Step 4

Let it cool in the oven for an hour. I left the over door slightly ajar.

Step 5

Oh btw

the runner just came by. Woohoo

just applied for a refund for my return ticket to go back home.

heated sahur

well no i am not referring to the lauk sahur. But it's my mom. I was sad I could not balik kampung awal since this MCO takes place. And then the client does not make it easier for me. Tiba tiba my mom never thought better of me. She said i sengaja tak nak balik raya. Am i that terrible? Really? I am tired of being thought bad of. Really. You give people chance to start again but they dont seem to be doing the same to you. Really? Teruk sangat ke aku ni? I couldnt stop but to think if it was any of my younger siblings this wont happen. Havent you done enough damage to me? 

Thankfully my dad took over and helped me with what needs to be done. That's it. When people have problem, you lead them pathways, instead of blocking them with your emotions. I understand. Youre sad when i said i couldnt go back. But please.. again, you hurt me with the edges of your sharp words. I may seem like silly all the time, but that's better rather than walking as a cold bitch you've made me become one before. You'll never understand the impact of the sort of mental abuse you gave me in my younger years and how much I was willing to throw every single thing when i learnt what dad did to you. But I guess the lamb is just a lamb. and a lion is just a lion since a lion would never understand what terrified really means to a lamb. 

please forgive me god for i have feelings too and i cant always brush it off

Tribbiani and Monica

I remembered how gorgeous Monica's hair in episode 1 of season 8 when I was shocked looking at her now-not-so-red-hair anymore AND how fast I watched Friends that I realised now that Im at episode 20 of it. Woahhh. I think I took Joey's despair too seriously.

shell out sayoq

Trying out Khairulaming's recipe! Tiba tiba teringinnnnn sangaattttt.

minyak letak lebih ciked. Bila minyak dah panas baru tuang bahan yang telah dikisar tadi. Agitchew

gaul gaul Dalam 6-7mins lepastu tutup api. Siap daaa. Sayur kan. So takyah masak lama nau. 

VERDICT: Bestttttt!! I should've added terung earlier ughh. But the other veggies and udang were greatttt

ciskek hanguih

sebelum

selepas. 

mixing up

Lenguh siot tangann. Ada duit lebih nanti patut invest untuk mixer Yang bagus

oleh sebab recipe kata sampai ada soft peak je, so I did as I was told

cream cheese belum cair betul ughhh stressss

baking itttt

burntttttttt

it looks a little burnt but my friend said it tastes great! But I couldn't eat it since it's too sweet. Siap pening kepala wehhhh. iCry

Outing in Setapak

My friend belanja-ed me thisssss. Domo arigatouuuuuuu N!! 

onde onde buah melaka

courtesy kakak office

shouldve put a lot more

green batch

pink batch

cut cut cut. Sayang kacip takde. Lenguh potong pakai pisau deyyy

kasi tabur tepung supaya tak melekat lekat

ha ha ha tak berseni langsunggg 

sebelum mula menguli tu sediakan dulu air untuk merebus

pink batch done

my first baby onde onde ('-:

golek golek Dalam mangkuk

DONEEEE

buku, kelas, dan ayam masak merah

I bought myself a cute little book!

(Since I constantly have to remind myself that love is a good thing)

And this was yesterday's pedas-gila-my-ayam-masak-merah