Hymn for the weekend

May God bless whoever runs KTM now.

Kemudahan surau dan cafe saaangat selesa. For me it's enough lah.

Kali pertama aku solat kat musolla ETS. sebelum ni solat di tempat duduk aje. Telekung dan sejadah dah disediakan. Takdela besar mana, tapi cukupla untuk satu orang/dua orang solat.

Aaaanyway. aku baru balik dari mengambil jubah. Menginap di rumah Ati. nasib kau la Rumah dia tengah renovate. tapi selesa je pun. sebab bilik Ati dah lama siap. Bilik air dia fuh puas aku mandi pasal pakai air kolah. Shower memang ada tapi pakai air kolah syahdu + nostalgic sikit kot. Lol.

Kelmarin penat beratur dalam panas. tapi alhamdulillah la kami sihat walafiat. aku tengok ada sorang brader tu siap dengan  crutches ambil jubah. So aku sangat bersyukurlah dengan kesihatan aku sekarang.

And baaaaaaanyak sangat aku splurge untuk makanan. Nak harey hari jumaat tu sampai sampai je melepak di nü sentral. sementara nak tunggu Ati habis kerja, sempatla aku makan macam2 jajan [read: 2 servings of takoyaki, hot n roll(pizza beef), chatime regular sized, bebola ayam & mashed potato masa tengok wayang seram]

lepastu lepak surau GSC pulak. adalah dalam sejam jugak ke 45mins je entah.

lepastu Elle datang, Ati pun. so kitorang lepak minum minum di Gravy Cafe amenda. lepastu pekena sushi dengan sashimi di Sushi Zanmai. i forgot how good it was there. and my first time pekena sashimi di situ? terharuuuuuu sebab kenapa s-e-d-a-p sangat. aaaaasfhdgjkllzxbmvn

Lepastu pergi Melur & Thyme pergi jenguk kejap firmmates Ati di situ sebelum bergerak ke Bangsar untuk berjumpa dengan Ayun. Kat situ kitorang lepak PappaRich. Mula mula ingat nak lepak Nirwana, tapi macam biasa, tempat tu penuh nakharey so tak jadi. 

Esoknya (hari Sabtu) jam 12 gerak ke Shah Alam dan lunch di Orkid Thai dengan classmates Ati. Lepas makan, terus gerak ke UiTM. so sampai dalam 2.45ptg jugak. By 5, baru selesai semua alhamdulillah! Lepastu lepak dengan Ayun bertiga kitorang (Aku Ati Ayun) kat Kedai Kopi. Semua pakat pakat order air je semua dahaga ya AMAT. aku dah order air kelapa. My thirst is quenched! Ayun chow, kitorang pergi kedai telefon kejap pasal aku nak tukar tempered glass phone aku ni. Tapi yang gelap biasa aku pakai tak ada stock. aku suka yang gelap pasal aku ada silau jugak rabun aku no. dan paling penting people cannot peek whenever I'm on it. Sayangnya dah tak ada, aku tukar jelah yang biasa rm8 :(

Lepas tu ke Wong Solo. Ati baik giler melayan kerenah anak dia yang sorang ni lolz.

dalam jam 9 kitorang dah gerak balik Langat and i thought to go tunjuk bintang later, tapi tak jadi sebab Ati sibuk mengemas rumah dengan ahli2 keluarga yang lain. dalam 2 pagi baru selesai semua kot rasanya.

dan harini, not much. tido sampai jam 10, aku asyik bangun baring tido mandi baring tido last2 aku kejut Ati suruh dia bangun mandi herherherherrr

dah breakfast rumah Nenek Ati (buruk tak perangai datang makan aje i know jangan marah) kitorang balik rumah Ati balik (selang 2,3 rumah aje) main main phone kat ruang tamu, terlelap di situ sampai 2,3mins sebelum Azan Zohor berkumandang aku terjaga then lepak bilik before solat. dah siap semua, gi rumah nenek salam semua orang, diorang ajak lunch pulak amboi lauk sedap sedap lagi pulak aku kontrol diri makan sikit aje walaupun Salad Nogori aku macam melantaks sikit. eherherher

jam 3.40petang kitorang gerak, dalam jam 5 baru sampai Nü sentral. gi lunch (again) i ate Lamb Kofta not bad. saiz Small je pun kenyang macam makan satu ekor kambing (acah sangat) itupun dalam RM67 nokharey. then akupun kocoh kocoh la salam peluk cium Ati semua ke Platform 9 3/4 ok acah Harry Potato. Dah lari lari tengok2 delay 15mins. aku nampak ada kedai buku. masuk kejap dan nampak buku2 untuk belajar bahasa Asing. Cari bahasa Jepun dang it nampak Vol 2 je. Vol 1 harey habeh kena telan ka. lepastu terus diorang buat announcement Train dah sampai so aku tak belilah :( sedih

dan sekarang aku masih dalam train. baru lepas Ipoh rasanya.

semoga perjalanan kami selamat.

Amin.

Tq Ati for your hospitality wuaa nak nangis sebab terharuuu

xoxoxo

p.s. tak lupa buat MakCik umur 70 yang duduk sebelah aku yang sangat wise dan aku ada berharap sikit supaya mak mertua aku cool sebegitu. or susah sangat, aku aje jadi gitu.

p.p.s. Q is getting married. She'll be getting engaged before 30th of May (of this year jugak can you believe that!), sebelum parents dia pergi Mekah.  Paling  awal, mungkin Sept dia akan nikah. tarikh bebetul betul katanya later baru decide. I'm soo happy for herrr but i feell soo sadd jugak at the same time :'( 

Why?

Law. At first i was hoping I could finish law foundation as soon as I can. I hated it. It was so hard. I blamed myself for not being good enough for dentistry or tesl. But one day I brace myself and say to myself. Maybe this won't be so hard if I stop being so hard to myself. So I let loose and try to learn to accept the fact that taking law might be the best for me.

now I feel that taking law is so important because i'd like to know more about our legal system. Well i feel that it isnt so bad after all to know more about law term or law language. And I think it's great to learn about law first, before we start to criticise or asking govt to amend them. Taking law challenges myself to learn something that is more serious in my life as i tend to take things for granted... I just hope i can survive my degree well enough to catch my dream.

Law makes me think hard whatever we could do to change the bad system of govt. As one of my lecturers ever said to us, '' sometimes govt needs somebody to remind them things they might have overlooked." i could never agree more with that.

And last but not least, i want to make my dad proud of me. I want whatever he has sacrificed for me to be something that he'll never regret. I'm hoping to take care of my parents one day with their proud smile of me as my encouragement to live my life. 

Thankyou.

Ann.

January 19, 2013, 12.10pm.

aren't we?

we avoid to discuss taboo things. but in quiet one will grow out of curiosity. 

people tend to venture things they don't understand. Just out of curiosity. and for the sake of being different from others too, i guess.

Tak logik!

Most of the stories of my life doesn't make any sense. Sometimes illogical. 

So Ibu never seemed to trust me wehenever i try to explain. Nor that she cares more than what she really presumes anyway.

Japan

i really, really, really, really, really, want to go to Japannnnnnn

nak pergi theme park dia

nak rasa semua japanese food

semua japanese games

else bawak balik lelaki jepun yang segak segak oso can lah why not

nakkkkk pergiiiiiiiiiiiii

kalau dapat hadiah convo ke memang cantik lah sesangat.

or hadiah belated birthday ke.

nakkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

haihs.

aku selalu jealous dengan orang.

Orang2 yang confident bila berjalan

bila diambil gambar

bila senyum

bila bercakap

bila bila je

yang don't give a pug whatever you want to say about them.

pukul berapa aku nak macam tu :(

Uh

i did not just cry JUST BECAUSE I WAS HUNGRY.

pak cik mee pata padang kota tu lahh! Baru pi cari mee ka apa

the beauty that kills the beast

In the end, it's beauty that matters. 

born with it. or die without it. 

or might as well "rent it".

remember, no ugly girls. just lazy ones.

Jeans negara

apparently i couldnt fit in my favourite jeans anymore but masalah negara is bigger than this!

Bila mak sentap.

Kengkadang aku terasa jugak dengan mak aku. Tapi apa nak buat kan. Aku ni anak je. Yang penting jangan buat mak ayah terasa kan. Hati anak ni apalah sangat.

Mak cakap ikut sedap mulut pun redha je lah. Tapi bila dah dalam persekitaran yang 'ikut sedap mulut' tu, tak mustahil lah "bagaimana acuan begitulah kuihnya" tu kan.

Tapi bila anak TERikut (sebab dah diasuh begitu), agak agaknya sekadar MAAF je cukup tak? Yelah. Mak yang buat kan. Bukan anak.

Tapi anak ada banyak. Anak ni buat tak apa. Anak ni buat tak boleh. Takpa mak takpa.

Mungkin kita sama-sama Tuhan belum buka hati. Tuhan masih kasi peluang untuk kita sedar diri.

Takpelah Tuhan. Aku ni anak je. Mak tu tetap mak. Aku cuma harap suatu hari nanti aku takkan pernah buat macam ni pada anak anak aku. Sebab aku tahu betapa sakitnya hati seorang anak bila mak sendiri bercakap tanpa memikirkan bahasa yang sesuai. Tapi tak semua anak dapat rezeki macam tu. 

Takpe Tuhan. Aku sedar tuhan kasi aku nampak supaya aku boleh memaafkan.  Aku sedar Tuhan cuma nak ingatkan aku yang manusia penuh kekhilafan. Baik aku. Baik mak aku. Mahupun kau yang sedang membaca ni.

thank you.

you know when you feel soo GRATEFUL to friends who still stay with you through your thin and thick but you cant say anything because you think you'd scare them away.

poor Ibu. i know she is not happy with the way Ayah's treating us. sibuk sangat bekerja. mintak kita paham, tapi susah betul bila kita mintak Ayah paham Ibu. 

i know ibu's been weeping silently bcs Ayah's been neglecting her. it's almost 26 fucking years and he still doesn't understand how to treat Ibu. ibu's been doing her part. not perfect but she's giving it her utmost effort.

now can i say he's such an ignorant and selfish person?

if this is marriage, then i don't want it.

not in million years.

Dear God, please let Ayah realised everything before it is too damn late :'(

What A cute little boy. NOT!

Got a pink rose when i was 15. ALMOST flattered until i found out i wasn't the only girl who received it. So i gave it to him back. Amenda entah.

"Confidence isn’t “I know she likes me”, confidence is “I’ll be okay whether she likes me or not.”

cita cita

ada satu hari nanti aku nak kupas pasal faith. MY faith. tapi malas nak taip di phone. malas jugak nak buka laptop. 

ha pergi mereput di sana

to each and every one of you

no offense but im ugly and have a crush on you

Aha seri baru balik dari tengok orang betunang kah?

Baru nak puji and gonna say it out loud."Eh, cantiklah pela....." -________-

 baru tersedar yang TIBAHJAH aku minat pelamin pulak amboi

Guibo

Weh that girl was damn lucky lah she got Guibo's driver license..... but then she was a cutie. Mixed portuguese some more. but then i don't know how he looks like. takut pulak nak tengok. because i was soo in LIKE with his talk! I DONT EVEN KNOW HIM! 

after listening to him EVERY morning i thought eh this guy is damn interesting la dey.

but then.. i found their topic this morning quite interesting lah because i kinda can relate with it. "Have somebody ever hit on you?". something like that lah.

anddd i thought i should write it off here. 

(after the flirty sesh semalam tak rasa nak call Flyfm pagi pagi buta ni dah kot)

eh later lah i sambung!

eyes full of hearts

i think Hafiz Hatin, Geebo, Sharul Shiro are funny and fun to be around.

Nazim Othman, Amar Baharin and  Afiq Muiz are cute. 

i called up Flyfm this morning and confessed up to Geebo! ha ha ha

i don't even know how he looks like but.......entahlah. Lol.

aku call tu sebab nak dedicate lagu (Buble's Haven't Met You Yet) kat Geebo. dah tu diorang suruh nyanyi pulak. my voice was like shrivelling bcs i never expected for me to really got through their lines. sheeesh. if not i'll sing better. dahlah nyanyi part intro je. *facepalm* patutnya aku nyanyi part chorus, tapi sebab nervous punya pasal. my hands were shakin kottt macam ada suis on off pulak and it automatically does it from time to time kalau tengah nervous lmao.

Nah. song gei ni.

THAT WAS MY FIRST TIME BUYING THING AS EXPENSIVE AS JUST NOW.

Rm238 might be cheap for you. Not for me. I just hope my sister'll like it. 

One thing for sure, i know my other sister would like it, no matter what.

Ni lagi satu. I got to buy a present for a guy lawyer at my workplace. A good Pen macam bagus kan?