New Year's kissessss

Nakkkk.

I want to do it happily with someone who I loveeeeee and who loves meeeeeee back as much and I love him very much tooooo.

I want a halal New Year's kissssssssses gahhhhhhhhh

how strange

How strange that my imagination running so wild that I picture you in one of those comfortable chair, reading. and me bringing hot chocolate to you while giving you a kiss on your forehead. Now that's wild.

birthday

Current dilemma:

I intended to go back since it would be my birthday this Friday. But due to poor planning, I haven't even gotten my bus ticket yet (on a Sunday morning). Been trying to access all the website but it seems that the only available ticket is only this morning (Aeroline bus) and none on the TBS app. Laundry pun tak terbuat lagi since I skipped it on Saturday morning for Aquaria getaway (heheh) 

Now I think I need to inform my Boss that maaaaybe I would go in for Monday and Tuesday (and replace it to Chinese New Year week instead), so since Wednesday is a public holiday, that leaves Thursday and Friday. And I should get my leave on Friday lah since my test is on a Saturday. Should I take my day off on Thursday too? I could just move my morning appointment on my Thursday to Monday instead tho...

Nak balik pun I'm kinda short of money now since I had to get a new handbag (sebab putus tali. Tiga kali Raya dengan bag Tu. UwU) and one of my intended goals is having year end promo 20% (had to top up almost rm300 for this purpose.  Haihss) 

Pukul berapa my dad would be very rich and keep on giving me monthly allowance ni (20k as monthly allowance pun ok hiks) ish heheh

I really want to celebrate with my family but since my birthday would be on a Friday and Saturday is test, now where that would leave me? A lonely birthday, I guess. But then bunbun told me she would get to me on that Friday and have a meal with me yayyyy. So that's good. Ok dah now I made up my mind. I will keep my cuti. diam diam in my house (so that I could be content with watching a lot of horror movies), have my mind peace from work for a while, study for my test, and later have my birthday peacefully and sit for my test and that's it yay! Thank you for reading heheh.

tingkatkan prestasi!! hiappp!!

My friend just gotten herself a laptop from her Boss!!

She even got a cute card that says Thank you for your best effort! Bestnyaaaaa. 

One day I wish I could be that good wehh. Tak payah minta pun Boss bagi sendiri as appreciation. I really hope I would know what I'm doing one day.. 

Now this motivates me by 35% to work better and has put down my motivation to stop doing litigation by 35% juga !!

baik

Bahaya juga dengan orang baik ni. Baik sangat rasa nak jatuh hati je selalu. 

Aduh penat

Nak kutip tiap kali.

putus

Ya. Tiga tahun. We had great Raya together thrice.

Maafkan aku. Tapi itulah. Semua benda nak kasi tak boleh juga kan. But then. I really had so many good times with you. You were right there through my happy and sad moments. 

I had to move on by today. I literally used plastic bag today tau dak.............. tali beg aku putuih..... For two days I carried my bucket bag like a baby. 

So last night I saw 

post cdey

I really want to go to Sarawak...

Thought my employer could sponsor one, but the clients are not paying until now.... thought of using my savings tapi savings tak banyak dah since I had to spend some for my car last month.. Sedihnya...

Last strategy to fork out money to buy her a wedding gift. Maybe a microwave! 

But I really want to see my closest friend getting married up close..... Why.....

Post updated: omg I love you Bosssssssss

Hekhek

Sarawak gwurlll

Perasaan Aku bercampur baur sekarang ni.

I'm losing my closest friend to her husband :(

On the morning she's taking her flight to Sarawak baru rasa.

I always, always pray for God to easy her way in every way. Especially during her hard times. Especially during the moment I couldn't help but I can only look from the outside. 

Kawan kawan dia ramai weh. Aku nak dekat pun cam malas. Her weekends will be filled with responsibilities and funs. But she never seem to mind. 

She is one of my good friends who always, always inspire me to be a better person. The one who I can always look up to.

There were a few hiccups between us, but she doesn't seem to mind. She values friendships. She values food (like me, hehe). She's great. I wish her happiness. This is one of those friends you don't seem to talk much but deep inside your friendship means a lot. 

Kalau aku kaya, aku dah belanja dia selalu. Belanja dia makan. (Macam dia selalu buat untuk aku) . Beli hadiah wedding besar-besar. Macam peti ais ke. Microwave ke. TV ke. The best brands there is. Ughhh tak boleh panjang langkah bila limited resources ni. 

So sekarang ni pukul berapa nak ada sugar daddy yang boleh tajakan dengan baik hatinya ni? Hmmmmmm 

little hope

I hope Ash is having fun with me being her friend for all these times. 

Because I am. I really am. 

And I also hope A will deliver safely.

And all my friends with their babies to always be happy.

And along those lines I just hope I would have the same chance. To be happy with someone who would be dying and happy to be with me, as happy as I am to be with him. Being together.

vroom vroom

Today I went back to my place with my baby bro. He drove alllll the way to Shah Alam. Kereta manual kan. Alhamdulillah I got extra money to give to him as duit belanja since I asked for an advance of rm300 from le Boss before going back Kampong (or was it during my stay? Hehe) 

I feel the most relieved when I got extra money to give to my family members. My mom refused to take my money since I started for my postgrad programme. But I still 'selit-selit' lah a bit. Malu lah dah kerja pun masih nak meminta-minta from my mom. My mom still insists for me to let her know if I'm in dire... Alhamdulillah even though my salary is cukup-cukup, at least now I could rake some for savings. Thank God for my Boss' hospitality and whomever he is.

I guess it's not so bad after all working here kan? 

But it would always be better on my mind if I could return/give more to my company. If God's will. Will punyalahh! 

See you on Monday

When your Boss texted you about work and your mom came barging in and cried very badly on your bed. How would you feel. What would you do.

Silly.

your voice always help me 

when i feel alone

I feel so stupid

Got all worked up 

for a phone call

and when i pick up

I dont even have much to say

where’d you goooouu

i miss you soooouuu

fck this

I guess I finally understand what irks me most:

When people interfere with my plan.

In what way? You plan something with someone and you specifically told them you have other plans later. 

The night before you told them we should go early since you have stuff and they have stuff. you woke up early. And dumb me I thought everyone would let you know that we are going late and the reason of doing that.

Fck. I should not write this anymore. I'm just angry. That's it. Because somebody decides to just text me and continue her sleep instead of telling me the reason we're going later than early. 

I'll cool down. Fck this.

And I hope we'd be friends forever happily

I have the best of friends who would make a good shelter for stray, lost, abandoned, and surrendered souls. 

I got carried away

And I don't want you anymore.

P/s: I cried in a friend's arms. Without uttering even a word on you. I cried because I really wanted you. Now I don't think I do anymore.

Jealous

All closed up since our times are running up

Kereta

Baru baru ni aku pi buat alignment dengan balancing, lepas mechanic test drive kereta, dia mai kat aku cakap absorber mounting aku dah boleh tukar dah ni. Ayoyo. aku cakap la yeye je. Lepastu dia cakap, akak perasan tak gegar. Aku dah macam.. Oh ni ke puncanya... Tapi dalam hati je la. Sebab aku memang dari awal tahun haritu aku dah complain dekat Perodua masa service. Tapi masa tu orang Perodua bangkitkan isu engine mounting kat aku. Dan masa awal tahun tu, tak ada la teruk nau gegarnya macam sekarang. (hujung oktober 2019)

aku mintak quotation kat dua bengkel luar dan bengkel Perodua.

Bengkel A

Absorber 1 set RM520
Engine Mounting Ori RM600
Upah replace absorber RM120
Upah replace engine mounting RM200
= RM 1440

Bengkel B

Absorber RM180 untuk 2
Engine Mounting Ori RM 650
Upah RMx?
= RM830 + upah.

Bengkel Perodua

Absorber RM59.90 x2 = RM119.80
Engine mounting = RM700 (kena bayar deposit RM350)
Check kereta = RM30.00
= RM 849.80


So...... memandangkan dah hujung tahun ni..... aku mampu mengucap panjang je la....

Adik aku suruh bagitau ayah aku je. Tapi entahle. Malas campur malu. Tapi orang malu selalu rugi kan. Tengoklah macam mana. Ni minyak hitam pun nak kena tukar. Nak tukar confirm nak yang fully synthetic je since kereta ni selalu nak ke outstation. Kesian Bebo :(

Life. Mine.

Even if we are destined merely to cross path, I thank God for that.

I wish every week has at least one day like yesterday

Semalam suasana dalam courtroom macam dalam satu classroom where the teacher sat at the front, there's the Joker of the class, the one who performs in class, the one who's loud unnecessarily, the crush (❤️ / or crushss lol), the one who sat silently, and there's me. Hiks 

Content

I don't date much and that shows when 10 years later I just remembered every single person I've pushed away for the past years