buat kek pakai roti gardenia

I never knew it's possible to bake a cake using bread (say whuttttt?) 

i used 7 slices of Gardenia green ones. Should've used more but I only have a small food blender....

cara-cara

kita blend roti. Aku buat dua batch sebab blender tak beso.

ketepikan.

pukul telur dan gula. (Tapi aku tersilap masanii. Pi pukul telur dengan Susu pekat lolll). Lepas tu masukkan minyak masak sayuran Daisy,  Susu pekat, baking powder, dan vanilla essence.

colouring timeeee! Ada tiga bekas berasingan. Lagi satu batch aku tak campur apa-apa warna.

Agaknya phone memory aku dah full. Tu pasal phone tak tangkap betul kot.

Aku silap sikit ni. Ingatkan ada bekas sederhana besar. Rupanya tak ada.... Tempekla kat sini...

Oleh sebab kek aku punya acuan macam kelakar, so Aku adjust sikit timing bako dalam oven tu. Aku buat 160 degree Celsius dan bakar 15 mins dan kemudian bakar sekali lagi pada suhu yang sama selama 10mins.

HASILNYAAA....

VERDICT:

THANK GOODNESSSS rasa kek..... edible laaaaa. Tapi mostly rasa roti juga sebab aku pakai roti wholemeal hahahahahhh. Tak sabar nak tunggu adik aku bangun tido tengah hari dia nak suruh dia rasa pulakkk.

wings

I look at this here and wonder if I will ever have soulmates and hoping he will lead me to heaven in the most gentlest way he could ever be. 

And I like it whenever 

Aaaand also I've started to Google on the nursing homes. Mahainyaaa. Takdak Ka insurance yang cover for this oneeee.

vaksin patin

Got my first vaccine today, peopleeeeee!

I might be feelin jumpy for the strangest reason.

Aaaaand

My best friend got me patin to cook! Ya rabbiii I really, really wanted patin, terribly. But my money is quite scarce this monthhhh. So I tried to forget about it. God is Great, He gave me rizq in the form of good sisters and friends. Angels. I have blood related sisters who are ones, too! I am so, so thankful for this. They dont know this, but this gesture means the world to me right now. I needed this to regain my inner consciousness. I need to be better for the days to come by, better. 

goblin

You know what... Everytime I feel like I really want a boyfriend,I'd start watching Goblin again. How wonderful kan??? Hehehe. It's never a loss to dream. Dream bigger. Oh no no. It's better love and lost than to never love at all they say. I'm such a sucker

48 uninterrupted hours in Napa

Dasar McDreamy. 

When he said this, I only pictured  a person saying all these things to me. Lol as if somebody would bother consider me a part of his future. Me and only me. Well of course, that person would never ask me all these. But my god, wouldn't it be so wonderful if one day I would finally be worthy of someone that he couldn't help but to finally say these to me? And really mean each and every word of it? 

Creamy spaghetti (my way)

Hari ini saya menghadapi meeting sambil potong bawang dan cendawan (secara senyap-senyap).

1. Saya goreng dulu strips (potongan panjang) ham ayam. Saya ingatkan nak goreng sampai garing, tapi dah terlanjur masuk ham semasa minyak tak betul2 panas lagi.

2. Kemudian bila dah macam garing sikit, saya campakkan masuk bawang putih dan bawang merah yang telah dipotong dadu kecil.

3. Setelah bawang-bawang tersebut naik baunya, saya kemudian masukkan cendawan yang telah dipotong.

4. Masukkan few dashes of Cayenne pepper, black pepper, dan potongan mentega bergaram (salter butter) dan masak sehingga naik baunya.

5. Setelah itu, saya masukkan pasta saya. Hari ini saya menggunakan pasta jenis angel hair kerana itu sahaja yang saya ada. 

6. Setelah itu saya masukkan susu sedikit sedikit (heavy cream saya tak ada) dan kepingan keju cheddar. Parmesan saya tak ada. Mahei.

7. Tutup api dapur dan pecahkan kuning telur dua ketul ke dalam kuali yang sama sambil digaulkan mesra.

8. Siaaaapp!

Verdict: bagi saya, sedap per. Kena la dengan tekak melayu saya ni. Tapi lain kali mungkin ham tu saya akan masak sampai berjaya garing. Yang kat atas ni saya termasuk awal sangat telur. Tak cantik kejadiannya dah. 

Grandparents

I terribly miss Tok and arwah Wan so much right now. I dreamt Wan brought us sightseeing. And it's been a year since I meet Tok. And the last time I meet mom was in January, I think.

My grandparents are always a blessing in my life. I'm glad I spent so much time with them when I was smaller.

salmon tryout #1

 2 smalllllest tub of butter

Bits of English parsley

Garlic

Black pepper

Dash of salt

Few dashes of Cayenne ground pepper

Lemon juice 

Preheat the oven at 200 degree C.

Put it in. 

Cook 15 mins.

Then 10 mins.

Mine. 

my sister's

mine dah masuk perut.

Verdict. Alhamdulillah it was edible. I was afraid that it would ended up being too dry, but I guess the sauce that drizzled on the salmon was really being helpful. Hehe. The skin was a abit chewy but the inside was all gooood! Tak kering punnn. Well cooked but still juicy. Yayyy. The asparagus was not that dry (like the last time I did it almost went keropok like. Lol) the tomato and baby cawot was gooood. Should put more aaaaaa

Cristina Yang just... Burke.. his Trumpet.. his vinyl collection..

I mean.. how do you sleep, or even get through the day.. without thinking... anything at all.. that the person who's with you right now.. won't ever be the one you sleep and wake up next to.. every day? 

Am I a marriage person? Do I want to be married? 

stupid rant. stupid tears

Am I that much of a burden to my dad? Are we? That he can't wait to stop paying for all of us. Well I think I'm such spoilt brat. But it has been years before we really have time for each other. We've been spending time away from each other so much. And we finally have time, it is too late. He'd rather go to his other family. Rather than fixing his own. Are we such failures? I hate this. Or Wally hate this. I hate that only his money still links us together. Maybe I really am. That's why. My parents are still paying their portions for my house. My road tax and car insurance. Hoping my dad would willing to still pay for it. 

I'm scared that one day we will be left alone by our dad.

I'm scared that I really don't know what to talk about whenever I call up my dad to ask how he's been doing.

asparagus cendawan sos tiram

The day I did stir fry asparagus mushroom and oyster sauce

Asparagus

Mushroom

Bumbu( kisar or tumbuk idc)

Cili padi kampung 10 

Cili besar 2

Udang Kering agak agak (almost segenggam, I think)

Bawang kecil 2 bj

Bawang putih 4 ulas

Oil to fry.

Put in bumbu. Kacau sampai naik bau. 

Put water a bit. (I think like three tablespoons)

Put in mushroom

Put in cut asparagus

Stir them well.

Oyster sauce, fish sauce, sugar, continue to stir

Put in corn starch with water to thicken 

Stir. 

Let it cook a bit while you wash the dishes.

Done.

Jom cari nasi panas.

post tomyam ayam

tears

I think I'm one of the luckiest girl in the world because it doesn't show at all on my face that I've been crying my eyeballs out every night. That's pretty cool, kan. Just make sure to wash your face thoroughly before getting to bed. If not you'll be waking up to some puffy eyes and we don't want that

segala penyakit berjangkit, go awaaayyy

Once in the moon you'll be feeling like wanting to doll up. Tapi office tak buka..... Pakai cantik cantik tapi masuk IPD tak sampai setengah jam je buat apa.. alaaaaa.. wuaaaaaaa

Laksa - uhhh...

Step 1

Step 2

Step 3

Step 4

I did bad. I should've used more bawang besar. Ughh. Tak cukup rasaaa. And I should've cooked the isi ikan firstttt. Then comes the cili, and bawang. Then the daun kesum, belacan, and asam kepingggg. Sheeesh. And two big cans of sardines were a lot. I know I only use two cans because my periuk is such a goddarn big

Step 5 - get help from your sister to cut your toenails. Hehe

this is crazy

When Shepherd mentioned about 11 years of Christmases, Thanksgivings and Birthdays, i felt that.

 Good one, Karev.

When Shepherd mentioned about 11 years of Christmases, Thanksgivings and Birthdays, i felt that.

Grey's Anatomy

I'm just at Season 2 Episode 7 and I already feel like shit.

main masak masak 3.0 yayy

This time around I have my sister with meeee. 

The day I decided to make onde onde.

*buns finished it off since I had a sudden meeting.

The day I decided to masak lempeng kepala

The day I decided to do mi goreng

The day I decided to cook nasi lemak pakai susu sejat Carnation (sebab santan kotak habis)

And this sambal I ikut this resepi. But with less cili kering (I only used one cup of cili kering, 5 shallots, 5 little garlic, 1 pack of chilli paste (blend semua) and 1 bawang Holland + bawang besar hiris besar2. Credits to this Cik Matahariku website here. 

Next time nak try resepi ni plak untuk sambal ikan bilis. Credits to this website here . 

The day I really wanted bihun sup