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Singapore and johor

Well hello there!  Been sooo long since I come here!

Yesterday I got the chance to go to Singapore (finally) when we finished our case early than intended to! 

It was purely unplanneddddd. Still can't believe I got to be at Singapore for a day trip! Was even stopped by Singapore's police (zzzzz) due to a very silly mistake I did (was recording the passage to security) ... Went to the famous Merlion and took a picture or two there. Went on a bus ride and even MRT rides! 

Alhamdulillah. Hope to be there happily again someday.

Fa inna ma'al usri yusrho?

 It's like..

Well, the world would still keep spinning whether you're there or not.

Maybe today is one of the day where I really wish I have someone I could really bare my soul too. I just want to cry and cry at him. And I really wish it was him. Only him. No one else.

I guess he is only a human, after all. And he is really at his lowest right now. Maybe this is where God says to me (if he could speak directly to me),"Look, this is why I haven't really have a plan of you with anybody else yet."

I don't think I can do this anymore.

I have never have doubt in my God. But I am such a lowlife servant. Am I even worthy to be born into this world?

Should I walk away from here, and run as far as I can?

me'nate

My family was here for the weekend! As we all know, my parents will move quite near us within the next two weeks.

My dad got promoted and to be promoted, he needs to move to Seremban. The house given was a mess. I can only pray my dad's house affairs can be resolved quickly and with ease. I won't write about it here since it was such a let down, but please pray so that our family could live together happily, at least until my dad retires..

And my superior is gone for a few days. His mother fell ill and was readmitted to the Hospital. O Allah, The Most Merciful, The Healer, The All-Hearing.... please grant her much comfort and ease in order for her to fight her illness...

And alhamdulillah my superior belanja-ed me this cool tumbler! I've tested its capability to hold hot water and until 4pm the water is still suam! Not bad for a pretty face ehhh..

And also look! A friend got me this! Right when my bag decided to betray me just after two weeks (jenis bawa barang tak ingat dunia...)

ta-da!

He said he never got me anything so he decided to get me this bag...... Semoga murah rezeki selaluuu. Tak belanja aku beg ni pun aku dah doakan kau, kawan!

And this shoes... My favourite shoes... Finally I had to let it go... Thank you for your service ..

run and drive

I escaped from my job today. I just drove and drove. Found myself in Shah Alam. Maybe I had panic attack. Maybe I do have some negative thoughts. Against whatever happened between my little sister and my mom. And my dad. Maybe I don't want my sister to end up like me. Damaged like I am now. Maybe I hate myself. For not being clever enough. For not being bright enough. As much as my ex-colleague is. And that's why she is one of the partners now. And I'm here, still being scared of commitment and talking to clients, alone. 

I think I got better when I get to speak with Jie. Been sooo long since we had a chance to chatttt. Aaaaaaaaaafhdjdkkdlsl. Finally I get to give Adam the book on Dinosaur. Yayyy. I hope he'll really enjoy ittt.

Then I went to sweat my body off. Such a productiveeee dayyy.

Time

https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=3558672047485381&set=a.465986793420604&type=3

Only time will tell.

But no. Maybe it's time for me to make way

"why", he asked me.

Most of the time I do wonder myself "what is wrong with me?" and "Why can't I seem to love myself?" 

Am I such a broken good

perfume

Somebody got me a very nice perfume..........

*Insert 10000x puppy eyes emoticons here*

Lo and behold.....

Wangiiiiiii. Thank youuuu😍😍😍 😭😭😭

Yayy. So now I can cross one perfume out on my list!

Mandi sungaiiiiii semangkissss

I never knew roasted marshmallows with biskut hup seng is sooooo fun to eatttttt 

rezekiiiirezekiiii

Alhamdulillah tuhanlah perancang rezeki...

Yayyy dapat lauk harini dari kawan kiteeeeerr

Kawan-kawan Aku nie memang suka spoil Aku dengan makanan.... I'm not complaining... Rezeki jangan ditolak bala jangan dicari kekdahnya...

Kena bersabar niiii... Tunggu kemaslahatan kualiti umai. So tak boleh makan terus. Nak pi masak nasi ni. Lalaalalaa.. jazakallahu khairan kasira my friendddd

emergency

My sister cried so hard because she couldn't eat her bread. It pains her so much that I asked her to go to clinic. Alhamdulillah a few days ago a few hundreds were cashed into my account from one of the insurance my parents took for us. So I used that money to bring her to the clinic. It broke my heart when I asked to go to clinic and she said she didn't have any money. Alhamdulillah your sister can fully utilized for your sake in this situation!

Turns out the inside of her ears were swelling with more smelling on the right one. So the doc have her eardrops and some antibiotic. And also to come back if the swelling and the pain still doesn't subside after she finishes her antibiotic.. let's pray some good for my sister!

kek minyakku kerehhh

Tepung gandum + baking powder diayak

telur, Susu pekat Manis Dan minyak jagung dipukul

aduk perlahan-lahan. Jangan overmix katanya. Satgi jadi keras 

nampak macam berharapan. 165 degree for 40mins. Next time aku cuba 20mins bakar, kemudian lagi 20mins tu nak cover dengan aluminium foil supaya tak gelap nau kek aku.

VERDICT: Keras.......... Sedih......... Keras dan merekah di tengah.... Warna gelap habis.... Takpelah ni kira percubaan la kan...

vaksin PT. 2

I only took pictures during observation time. Felt so safe with this attire hahahh.

didnt even stop to take pictures at the booth anymore since the variants are getting vicious. 

ciken soup for the cold souls

The day where I made chicken soup with red dates and barley. Not too bad, I suppose. Rasa sangat sihat okay.

Banana cake daaay

Step 1: prepare your mould

Step 2: Filter all the flour, baking soda, baking powder

Step 3: Beat your quarter cup of brown sugar + 4 eggs

i used six bananas. Next time, I shall use more to give it more taste of bananananas.

next you smash them

prepare your half cup of yoghurt.

put in yoghurt, smashed bananannas, melted unsalted 250g butter and a pinch of salt. I used Emborg bake & cook butter which I melted for thirty seconds in the microwave after I left it outside at room temperature for at least four hours.

wooopps, mould was too small, so I used this tray instead.

preheated it for 20mins beforehand at 170 degree C. When I turn in the batter, I baked it at 170 degree for 15mins, then I turned it down to 160 degree C and proceed to bake for another 30mins.

ta-daaa!!

VERDICT: baby sister said I need to use more bananannanass next time. But other than that, it was tastyyy!

saaaleee

Yayyy. Lotus tengah sale waktu niii. So I had to grab this oneee. Ingatkan nak beli yang rm74 tu je. Panasonic warna hijau. Cantikk. Tapi yang sale ni dapat dua jar dengan dry mill. So terpaksa lah amek yang ni... Harap harap boleh pakai berpuluh tahun lah.

Mom and friends

It was never about the value of the gift. But the thoughts they put into the matter. Maybe that's what it takes for you not to feel lonely. And feel forgotten. My mom is always good for doing these stuff to us her kids. Ada je benda dihantarnya. Ice-cream lah, Lychee, Kueh mueh, telekung, so many thingssss

ya Rabb, please give her the best Jannah there is to our good mothers.

And to my friends. From time to time ada je rezeki yang diorang kongsi dengan aku. Macam-macam bentuk! And I couldn't stop thanking God for letting them have the time to think of me. Because me, such a nobody, such a lowlife, good-for-nothing creature, and they still think of me. God, I am humbled by these. All the time. Thank you God. Thank you for always reminding me that sometimes my friends still have time to think of me, such lowlife, lonely friend, good-for-nothing friend.

I am always open to text my friends who made me feel the best of them once upon a time, but I am always afraid I could be a bother.. there's nothing worse than bothering your friend with unnecessary things. Consumed the time of their lives for some stupid things. I x want to do that. Thank you God. Thank you friends.

little party for my sis

Shes done with her thesis finally! Now what's left is just another paper. Wishing you the very best, little sis!

Ta-daa!

hot to make your blade sharp again 101

Use aluminium foil.

Dun-Dun--DunDunnnn

It worked! I don't know why it became watery, but it works! (Don't ask, Ive been trying to get the turmeric stain to get out sincer forever! ughhhh)