Jealous

All closed up since our times are running up

Kereta

Baru baru ni aku pi buat alignment dengan balancing, lepas mechanic test drive kereta, dia mai kat aku cakap absorber mounting aku dah boleh tukar dah ni. Ayoyo. aku cakap la yeye je. Lepastu dia cakap, akak perasan tak gegar. Aku dah macam.. Oh ni ke puncanya... Tapi dalam hati je la. Sebab aku memang dari awal tahun haritu aku dah complain dekat Perodua masa service. Tapi masa tu orang Perodua bangkitkan isu engine mounting kat aku. Dan masa awal tahun tu, tak ada la teruk nau gegarnya macam sekarang. (hujung oktober 2019)

aku mintak quotation kat dua bengkel luar dan bengkel Perodua.

Bengkel A

Absorber 1 set RM520
Engine Mounting Ori RM600
Upah replace absorber RM120
Upah replace engine mounting RM200
= RM 1440

Bengkel B

Absorber RM180 untuk 2
Engine Mounting Ori RM 650
Upah RMx?
= RM830 + upah.

Bengkel Perodua

Absorber RM59.90 x2 = RM119.80
Engine mounting = RM700 (kena bayar deposit RM350)
Check kereta = RM30.00
= RM 849.80


So...... memandangkan dah hujung tahun ni..... aku mampu mengucap panjang je la....

Adik aku suruh bagitau ayah aku je. Tapi entahle. Malas campur malu. Tapi orang malu selalu rugi kan. Tengoklah macam mana. Ni minyak hitam pun nak kena tukar. Nak tukar confirm nak yang fully synthetic je since kereta ni selalu nak ke outstation. Kesian Bebo :(

Life. Mine.

Even if we are destined merely to cross path, I thank God for that.

I wish every week has at least one day like yesterday

Semalam suasana dalam courtroom macam dalam satu classroom where the teacher sat at the front, there's the Joker of the class, the one who performs in class, the one who's loud unnecessarily, the crush (❤️ / or crushss lol), the one who sat silently, and there's me. Hiks 

Content

I don't date much and that shows when 10 years later I just remembered every single person I've pushed away for the past years 

anecdote

I might just be one of your stories.

But to me, you were a lifetime.

If I'm a chapter to yours,

You'll be the book to mine.

cat

Cat ate its catfood just now. I intended to walk away after getting it food. I was so tired. My head was spinning. And I felt so lonely. So I waited for it to finish before walking away.

Today too I attended a case matter not knowing that the Defendant will also be attending for herself. I felt terrible since she looked like a lady who knows nothing. But everyone could put an act in front of the judge. Including me. I acted all tough before the TP and the lady but I shrivelled when I got a seat to myself. I felt so cruel but at least the job is done. I told all this to F and she just listened to me patiently. God bless her soul.

I visited my uncle and aunt while making our way home as it had been so long since I visited them. we got to eat my aunt's asam pedas. Best wehhhhh. Cukup asamnya. Not that spicy. All the spices were just nice. Thank you uncle and aunt!

And yeah. attended International Trade & Finance talk tonight. was told to form a group minimum 2 persons to do some written assignment and case presentation during next session. 

Made some time for him as well. He told me I could go home or teman him. So I willingly choose to teman him. Later then I guess he was so uncomfortable seeing me not eating. He said I might as well go home since I'm not eating. I told him my head was spinning. But alas, I took two spoonful to myself. Too tired to type anymore. Goodbye. Thanks for reading.

I shall

I shall cease myself bits by bits from wanting you

Facebook is no good.

No it's not.

Keeps reminding that we arent together 

if I told you

If I told you,

That you were everything

Everything I have ever wanted

Will you believe me

Since I never even knew what I was looking for?

Maybe I am just too young

When I thought I finally found him

Someone like you

That it could be that you are the only that was right in time, right in place for me

Will you believe me?

Or I am just making this up

So that you will be always be the one

The one that I have to get away from

Yet also the one that I will ever give all of myself away to

Then will you believe me?

I never knew that love is so hard to write 

But it is with you

Whatever I felt was froze along with each of the moments delicately

Because I wanted for it to be that way

So that if I ever take down the route of memory lane

You will be you, I will be I, and we will always be us.

Us? Really?

mother

I have the best mother in the world!

Dear Lord please grant my mother the best of dunia and akhirat aaaminnnnn

Lam Alif Pa Rho

I ate instant noodle this morning. (Please don't tell my mom)
And my office manager was nice enough to give me her rice all that she bought for breakfast. Yess! I have something for lunch today!

Hmmmm. Dalam acc bank tinggal rm3 ringgit kot. Alhamdulillah my last rm50 was used to fill in my petrol for the week. I hope I could at least somehow extend it until next week... But my parents are coming for an event.... How am I supposed to--you know what? All is well. All is well.

So hard lah to survive since I have been staying in SA... Need to consume more fuel and just have to spend for tolls... Kurang kurang pun satu hari rm2.80 pergi balik office to allocate for tolls.

Tapi bilik situ best.. landlord ok.. housemates pun.. how lah how. Nak pindah pun nanti kena sewa Lori since I have bed and cupboard.. and money for rental deposit.. may God ease my way this month and next ya Allah

P.s. saja buat dramatic, boleh je posa. Hekhek

One for you, since I am no good with words

It's a little bit funny this feeling inside
I'm not one of those who can easily hide, I
Don't have much money but boy if I did
I'd buy a big house where we both could live
If I was a sculptor, but then again no
Or a man who makes potions in a traveling show
Oh I know it's not much but it's the best I can do
My gift is my song
And this one's for you
And you can tell everybody this is your song
It may be quite simple but now that it's done
I hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind
That I put down in words
How wonderful life is while you're in the world
I sat on the roof and kicked off the moss
Well a few of the verses well they've got me quite cross
But the sun's been quite kind
While I wrote this song
It's for people like you that
Keep it turned on
So excuse me forgetting
But these things I do
You see I've forgotten
If they're green or they're blue
Anyway, the thing is, what I really mean
Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen
And you can tell everybody this is your song
It may be quite simple but
Now that it's done
I hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind
That I put down in words
How wonderful life is while you're in the world
I hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind
That I put down in words
How wonderful life is while you're in the world

Tempest by Escala

If I would have my life back then.
Back when my dad still only has us,
But I guess not.
I guess my dad was feeling lonely when we leave him one by one.
And I only kept in touch with him just for money. What a selfish daughter.
I never knew how to read my own father.

I guess it should have been
If I have been taking good care of my parents.
I didnt even thought that my father would, of all people, feeling lonely.

That should have explained him playing other people's father rather than mine

I can only keep guessing
Since I am such a coward

Tapi kalau nak sebab what ifs and only ifs
Babi pun boleh terbang lol
And it's only fair since he told me this thing is just not within my control
But I hate this feeling
This feeling of barely standing there and couldnt even help with anything..


And my mother
She changed a lot
She really has

She has been a lot more open minded
A lot more laid back than she was back then
I now have the most wonderful mom. not that she was not already one back then heheh
but I too now have the saddest mom of all
You will never know how insecure a human could be
You will never know how dependent, or even.. needy, as a human could ever be
And i guess you will never know how strong would you even have to be to hold onto something that is not even there anymore

And that particular human relates to you
What can you even do about it?

As of now, i acknowledge that I am


I guess I have so much feelings  i have kept inside now that it is spilling bit by bit
Somebody told me he would listen
Rather than me talking to strangers
But he already burdened with glorious purposes of his own life ( I just want to use this sentence on him hehe), and he also means a lot to me (like a lot LOT. I have never been feeling this way) how can I ever do that?

and my friends.
U, A, R, Q, N, F
thank you for always being there for me.
To listen my rambling on and on and on