if you know it, it's an understanding. if you don't know it, it's called a misunderstanding.
Tuesday, December 31, 2019
New Year's kissessss
Monday, December 30, 2019
how strange
Sunday, December 29, 2019
birthday
Tuesday, December 24, 2019
tingkatkan prestasi!! hiappp!!
Monday, December 23, 2019
baik
Saturday, December 21, 2019
putus
Thursday, December 12, 2019
post cdey
Sunday, December 8, 2019
Sarawak gwurlll
Sunday, December 1, 2019
little hope
Sunday, November 24, 2019
vroom vroom
Friday, November 22, 2019
See you on Monday
Monday, November 4, 2019
Silly.
Sunday, November 3, 2019
fck this
Saturday, November 2, 2019
And I hope we'd be friends forever happily
Friday, November 1, 2019
I got carried away
Wednesday, October 30, 2019
Tuesday, October 29, 2019
Kereta
aku mintak quotation kat dua bengkel luar dan bengkel Perodua.
Bengkel A
Absorber 1 set RM520
Engine Mounting Ori RM600
Upah replace absorber RM120
Upah replace engine mounting RM200
= RM 1440
Bengkel B
Absorber RM180 untuk 2
Engine Mounting Ori RM 650
Upah RMx?
= RM830 + upah.
Bengkel Perodua
Absorber RM59.90 x2 = RM119.80
Engine mounting = RM700 (kena bayar deposit RM350)
Check kereta = RM30.00
= RM 849.80
So...... memandangkan dah hujung tahun ni..... aku mampu mengucap panjang je la....
Adik aku suruh bagitau ayah aku je. Tapi entahle. Malas campur malu. Tapi orang malu selalu rugi kan. Tengoklah macam mana. Ni minyak hitam pun nak kena tukar. Nak tukar confirm nak yang fully synthetic je since kereta ni selalu nak ke outstation. Kesian Bebo :(
Saturday, October 26, 2019
I wish every week has at least one day like yesterday
Semalam suasana dalam courtroom macam dalam satu classroom where the teacher sat at the front, there's the Joker of the class, the one who performs in class, the one who's loud unnecessarily, the crush (❤️ / or crushss lol), the one who sat silently, and there's me. Hiks
Content
Friday, October 25, 2019
anecdote
Wednesday, October 23, 2019
cat
Monday, October 21, 2019
Sunday, October 20, 2019
if I told you
Saturday, October 19, 2019
mother
Tuesday, October 15, 2019
Lam Alif Pa Rho
I ate instant noodle this morning. (Please don't tell my mom)
And my office manager was nice enough to give me her rice all that she bought for breakfast. Yess! I have something for lunch today!
Hmmmm. Dalam acc bank tinggal rm3 ringgit kot. Alhamdulillah my last rm50 was used to fill in my petrol for the week. I hope I could at least somehow extend it until next week... But my parents are coming for an event.... How am I supposed to--you know what? All is well. All is well.
So hard lah to survive since I have been staying in SA... Need to consume more fuel and just have to spend for tolls... Kurang kurang pun satu hari rm2.80 pergi balik office to allocate for tolls.
Tapi bilik situ best.. landlord ok.. housemates pun.. how lah how. Nak pindah pun nanti kena sewa Lori since I have bed and cupboard.. and money for rental deposit.. may God ease my way this month and next ya Allah
P.s. saja buat dramatic, boleh je posa. Hekhek
One for you, since I am no good with words
I'm not one of those who can easily hide, I
Don't have much money but boy if I did
I'd buy a big house where we both could live
If I was a sculptor, but then again no
Or a man who makes potions in a traveling show
Oh I know it's not much but it's the best I can do
My gift is my song
And this one's for you
And you can tell everybody this is your song
It may be quite simple but now that it's done
I hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind
That I put down in words
How wonderful life is while you're in the world
I sat on the roof and kicked off the moss
Well a few of the verses well they've got me quite cross
But the sun's been quite kind
While I wrote this song
It's for people like you that
Keep it turned on
So excuse me forgetting
But these things I do
You see I've forgotten
If they're green or they're blue
Anyway, the thing is, what I really mean
Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen
And you can tell everybody this is your song
It may be quite simple but
Now that it's done
I hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind
That I put down in words
How wonderful life is while you're in the world
I hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind
That I put down in words
How wonderful life is while you're in the world
Tempest by Escala
Back when my dad still only has us,
But I guess not.
I guess my dad was feeling lonely when we leave him one by one.
And I only kept in touch with him just for money. What a selfish daughter.
I never knew how to read my own father.
I guess it should have been
If I have been taking good care of my parents.
I didnt even thought that my father would, of all people, feeling lonely.
That should have explained him playing other people's father rather than mine
I can only keep guessing
Since I am such a coward
Tapi kalau nak sebab what ifs and only ifs
Babi pun boleh terbang lol
And it's only fair since he told me this thing is just not within my control
But I hate this feeling
This feeling of barely standing there and couldnt even help with anything..
And my mother
She changed a lot
She really has
She has been a lot more open minded
A lot more laid back than she was back then
I now have the most wonderful mom. not that she was not already one back then heheh
but I too now have the saddest mom of all
You will never know how insecure a human could be
You will never know how dependent, or even.. needy, as a human could ever be
And i guess you will never know how strong would you even have to be to hold onto something that is not even there anymore
And that particular human relates to you
What can you even do about it?
As of now, i acknowledge that I am
I guess I have so much feelings i have kept inside now that it is spilling bit by bit
Somebody told me he would listen
Rather than me talking to strangers
But he already burdened with glorious purposes of his own life ( I just want to use this sentence on him hehe), and he also means a lot to me (like a lot LOT. I have never been feeling this way) how can I ever do that?
and my friends.
U, A, R, Q, N, F
thank you for always being there for me.
To listen my rambling on and on and on
Sunday, September 29, 2019
Well..
I don't know. How do you even leave someone who is your life? Build another one without them?
Sunday, August 25, 2019
Tigger and Friends who?
I cried so, so hard today.
I dont think I need to be reminded but this book seems so, so perfect and very capable of doing that.
Of doing what, you might ask.
See for yourself.
https://twitter.com/Starcourser/status/1164656492357791744?s=09
Book Title: Tigger & Friends
Author: Dennis Hamley
Illustrator: Meg Rutherford
Thursday, August 22, 2019
Monday, August 19, 2019
Friday, August 9, 2019
And one of His Greatness' wonderful creation was you
There I was again tonight forcing laughter, faking smiles
Same old tired, lonely place
Walls of insincerity
Shifting eyes and vacancy vanished when I saw your face
All I can say is it was enchanting to meet you
Your eyes whispered "have we met?"
Across the room your silhouette starts to make it's way to me
The playful conversation starts
Counter all your quick remarks, like passing notes in secrecy
And it was enchanting to meet you
All I can say is I was enchanted to meet you
This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonder struck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you
The lingering question kept me up
Two a.m., who do you love?
I wonder till I'm wide awake
Now I'm pacing back and forth, wishing you were at my door
I'd open up and you would say, hey
It was enchanting to meet you
All I know is I was, enchanted to meet you
This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonder struck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
This night is flawless, don't you let it go
I'm wonder struck, dancing around all alone
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you
This is me praying that this was the very first page
Not where the story line ends
My thoughts will echo your name, until I see you again
These are the words I held back, as I was leaving too soon
I was enchanted to meet you
Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you
Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you
This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonder struck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
This night is flawless, don't you let it go
I'm wonder struck, dancing around all alone
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you
Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you
Tired
I am really tired of you.
Of falling in love with you
Really. I am.
My heart is really, really, really tired of it
That sometimes I wish to disappear
God knows best.
Saturday, August 3, 2019
Thursday, August 1, 2019
Saturday, July 20, 2019
Wednesday, May 8, 2019
Aete Yokatta!
I found a home in you
Wrong; but it sheltered me.
Wrong; but it saved me.
And I guess God is Great.
As you are not alone and empty anymore.
Friday, April 12, 2019
Lempang satgi
I got this one friend i always feel like want to Lempang one because of how annoying she is. But she will always be the first one to offer me help whenever she can.
I really hope we could be friends for the longest time. Ya Allah please protect this friendship.
Monday, February 25, 2019
Monday, February 4, 2019
Kelak
Kelak
Tika hari begitu dingin
Wajah itu akan sedikit menghangatkan.
Kelak
Tika hari begitu berat
Wajah itu akan sedikit meringankan.
Kelak
Tika rindu begitu sakit
Wajah itu akan sedikit mengubatkan.
Sunday, February 3, 2019
Janji Nad
You are the best thing that has ever happened in my life. I won't take comfort by being ungrateful to you from now on.
Friday, February 1, 2019
I am enough.
Do you know how fckg hard it is to keep everything to yourself? When you just had to let rationality takes over you in the name of sanity? And balance? Fckg hard.
In the name of sanity. And morality.
Saturday, January 26, 2019
A little prayer
What did I do to deserve this kind of present, ya Allah? Alhamdulillah thank you for my mother, my siblings, my father, and my other family members.
Udah dititipin uang buat train, lagi dititipin uang untuk gue lunch lagi, buat grab lagi,
Ya Allah murahkan rezeki ibuku dan panjangkan lah hayatnya dalam kesehatan jua kebajikan.
Wednesday, January 23, 2019
Little bro
My not so little brother had a grave accident last two years. Caused him his right eye. Now left with 30% sight. Apparently the other motorcycle was stupid enough not to look before putting on speed and went crashing on my Bro. Stupid not licensed rider.
And today this morning. His eye went red. So freaking red. In the same day he had to attend an appointment with the lawyer with regards for his personal injury claim. The previous doctor said nothing wrong with his eye. Not infection. Just maybe that since he could never close his properly now, might be some bug doing it. So now the neurologist at the Island Hospital is checking him up.
Semoga semuanya baik baik je
UPDATE 26/1: Bless all these soul. My Boss gave me 2 days leave, (even gave me emergency fund) Doctors done the best, My mother who is always there, my cousin, my uncle and aunt, my wicked siblings, thank you. From the deepest of my heart.
Monday, January 21, 2019
Sunday, January 20, 2019
Beats me.
To be loved. To be protected. I guess it's just too much to ask from you. Or I've been anticipating from a wrong person. So.. Where's the right one is?
Friday, January 18, 2019
2019 nad!
It's just the second week of January and we are stuck financially... But I guess she got it worse than me. At least I got to have my breakfast whenever B asked me to buy his. :(
Luckily! I already got my breakfasttttt. SOOO I just bought one (usually B said who's buying she's entitled to get one for her own) and gave it to her. I was quite worried she wouldnt like the set I chose so I just prayed hard and boy, how God listens! It was accidentally her favourite set of double sausage mcmuffin with egg!
No. I would never blame my B. Every job has its perks and cons. Some places pays high but the Boss is hideousss. While some places goes with good pay, good collegue, far from home, good Boss. Some places nice Boss but pays a lot less buttt comes with lots of benefits! Lets you build your better self...
I'm gaining experience here. How nice it is to be in the place which lets you bloom beautifully. I am happy to be here. HELL YES I do worry of the future. But the power is in me. The now. The present. At least I get the power to decide however I want my present to be, to leave or to stay. Fight or flight. To be, or not to be. No it's not called being ignorant. More of a way to care about your present, in order to decide for your future. You cannot change your past. Butttt at least the present lets you have the say. Kan ?
Lagi satu. Nowadays, if I miss someone, I will straightly tell them how I feel. I'm tired of regrets. Now, I would take every opportunity that I have, try to live in the heat of the moment, because people change. The person you think you might know very well right now won't even respond to you the same way anymore in 5 years when you meet them again. By treating them the best, these good people deserve the least of this. I will give them my very best.
Ha. Kalau salah, that's not my mistake lah. Because ? If you know it, it's called understanding. If not, then you just misunderstood me lah. hehehe.
Thursday, January 17, 2019
Y u so scareddddd
Sometimes, I caught myself doing bad things on purpose just because I was scared that they would stuck on the idea of me being all nice so that I won't be responsible for their expectation.
Saturday, January 12, 2019
Praise to God
Alhamdulillah. I thank you God. For letting me be myself. For finally letting me have friends who always thinks the best of me. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah.
Thank you God